Thinking...

Day 0.

here it is...

Currently searching for the self that I have lost, I have decided to try a "new something" hoping it will push me forward and out of the whole I find my self hiding in more often than not. With a overprotective- empty nested-bipolar mom, a failed relationship, and an uncertain career path, I need some endorphins that will, somehow, help me a smile some more and give me a challenge to gain the self discipline I so clearly lack. Thus, I have decided to run for a cause.
I will run for my mom and her roller-coaster of emotions so called Bipolar Disorder. With the intent of holding no grudges and understanding that we all handle and see life in a different manner, I will run for her. Because, though, I blame her for so many mistakes, misfortunes and qualities of me I don't like, I could not live with out her or see her again in a manic depressive state..

Today will be day 0, that day where i give my self the challenge to change my life, to find a path, to show my mom she can do the same.